Bittersweet

I just found out that a friend of mine is pregnant. This is someone whom I've prayed for every night for God to give her and her husband a baby. She has been through a lot and has tried so hard for this. She is one of 2 friends that I have that really understands what I am going through. This is because we have all been through the same things, same tests, same disappointments. I am so happy for her because this is an answered prayer. I just wish it was the other prayer that I pray for every night. This friend has said all year long "This is our year girl! It's our time!" God is faithful and I have to keep praying expecting Him to answer it.

On another note, I get so sick of these people moaning and groaning and complaining about being pregnant or being a mom. I only wish they knew how hard some people try and fail at becoming pregnant. It's like they don't appreciate what they have. It was so easy for them so they have a right to complain. I just want to tell those people " Shut Up!". It's not easy for everyone. It seems to be easier for horny teenagers and foreigners, at least that's the way it seems at the clinic. Surprises, accidents, mistakes, planned whatever, they are all blessings from God. God doesn't make mistakes. He has a plan and purpose for everyone. I just have to relentlessly believe that my desire to be a mother was put there by God and he will fulfill this desire on His time. Isn't that just the most frustrating thing ever? Well despite my frustration, I have been able to find peace and that can only come from the Lord. I guess I can't say my prayers haven't been answered because they SO have in so many ways.